I begin to see a pattern uncovered-- I write more when God is flowing out revelations upon my head. I can't help but share!
Perhaps it's the crush of the wedding planning and the childcare and the photography courses and sessions and the fact that there are never quite enough hours in the day, but lately I haven't felt a lot of active growth in myself and my walk with Him. Even though Charles and I are doing hours of couples' devotionals and Christian pre-marital counseling reading and teachings, and praying together. It doesn't replace spending time with Him, basking in His presence, making little discoveries about Him and about who I am in Him just on my own... And little by little, He faithfully and lovingly breaks through... I'm so thankful that He forever pursues me.
Last night I couldn't sleep. Because I tend to be a pretty good sleeper across all time zones, this always makes me wonder if God is trying to get my attention and it's only in the quiet of the middle of the night that life is silent enough for my forever untrained ears to hear...
He drew me to pick back up the book I've been reading to review for Thomas Nelson's Booksneeze. "Draw the Circle: The 40 Day Prayer Challenge" by Mark Batterson has been speaking to my soul from the first page. Through 40 days of stories of experiences of and answers to prayer, both personally and corporately, I am both convicted and inspired. I ALWAYS know my prayer life is not what it could be. I am not one of the sainted ones who spend 23 of their 24 hours a day on their knees in intercession. I pray often throughout the day, but that sacred, focused time, where all other distractions are pushed away and it becomes ONLY you and Him, and you lay yourself open to hear His voice... those times are far more rare. And as I read this book I find myself longing for more of them, like a feeling of homesickness...
Reading this book has the potential to change my life, and yours. All I can think about now is how BIG He is and how huge is our mission and how purposeful our lives are meant to be and how intimately close He is if we reach out to Him! And how desperately I want more and more of Him. As much of His Spirit as He will infuse into my little life...
